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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 07:10

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

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My mum and dad in the seventies!

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He knew the spot.

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He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

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You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Just sitting at home with this huge cock. Who can take care of it for me?

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

If white people had been slaves, would WLM be a thing right now?

But, we were locked up after school.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

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The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

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It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

So, i spoilt her more .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

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I waited trembling.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

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I will be 64.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

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One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

But ive been too sick for many years..

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

She loved him until the end.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Put me off passion for life!!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Especially a lifetime of it.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

She married twice! .

I was very sick at this time too.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

We were not on the streets..

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I write beautiful poetry .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Was to survive, this bastard.

I was scared of men, in general

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

She was in good health!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Would this be the day?

What did i know ?

I had hoped to write a book about this .

It was going to be , some day.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I have no regrets .

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

But it wasn’t much.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

He resisted the act ,that day.

My family never makes their pension either.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I think the readers, may guess!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

All the time i was locked up.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

When she asked me how she looked .

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

My life is so biszare .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

And i lived it daily.

I don,t even have a pension.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

She wouldn,t have been !

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Who then, do I blame.?

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

This is soul school!.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I said to her

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

We all went to grammer schools

Im dying but, im not bitter.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I couldn’t, believe it.

So whats the point in blame.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

One cannot live in the past .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I was seconnd youngest,

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

She found it foreign!.

Im still living with it.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Ive learnt so much.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Comes on , in middle age.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I was 9 years of age.

(And it was in our own minds.)

As i do to all so called friends.?

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)